Tuesday, September 18, 2007
i am too cranky for my own good. argh i'm so tired of pretending like everything's fine. and the worst part is i dunno what exactly is troubling me either i've been having pretty bad mood swings lately. anw i went to yanjun's blog just now and she mentioned mrs sherwood (my sec 3 and 4 form teacher) and it just brought back a lot of memories. gosh how much i miss that girl. and qiuning and pipi and vinca. girls i hope u're doing fine with prelims! jiayou alright? (:
we finally had a more successful class girls outing today where we (peilian manda weiqin mel twin eileen and i) went to katong to eat laksa (absolutely awesome!), to parkway parade to shop (manda bought a pair of shorts and she was so pleased about it haha) then to settler's to play board games. it was pretty fun at settler's we were joined by john and josh after a while. i can't really rmb the names of the games we played (let's see ugly doll, cash and guns... ok really don't rmb) but we were definitely making a lot of noise, shouting laughing and banging the table, and perhaps making life a little difficult for the people who work there. haha. i think they completely deserved the 10% service charge for being so patient with us. the only complaint i have about that place is that there is very little leg room between the sofas and table. my legs were cramping after sitting and not being able to move around much for so long.
i suddenly rmb smth that happened not too long ago. i was sick from tuesday to thursday during the september holidays and wasn't feeling very fantastic the following week when school reopoened. and i was kinda whining about it and weiqin was like see you always said you wanted to be sick and you really fell ill next time watch what you say. cos during term 3 i kept telling the girls i wanted to be sick so i could miss school and rest at home cos i was so tired of the same old routine of sleep eat study and all i wanted was to rest. and of course i won't 'pon' school so i really wanted an excuse to not have to wake up at 5.40 in the morning. but i never fell ill. and i still did the stupidest thing of complaining. i mean when i was sick for the 2 weeks i felt terrible (especially the 3 days) and i just wanted to recover. so instead of wanting to fall ill i should really thank God for keeping me healthy despite the cranky weather we're having now.
it's frustrating how sometimes you're caught between two thoughts and you know which is wrong but you still can't shake the thought off. basically it's what i called the self-centred thought and it's like there's this angel and devil's voice in your head, kind of like in the cartoons, and you know that it's wrong to think of such a thing but somehow there's another voice that creeps into your mind telling you it's alright to sometimes want something for yourself. argh. ok i'm just talking to myself here it's just frustrating cos no matter how many times i tell myself that it's really not a big deal that i don't get what i want, but then again, i just want it. i'm just praying about it hoping that God will help me understand.
sometimes i think i just think too much. manda can vouch for that i'm sure. melly you're 18 already grow up! others before self. As before any sort of pleasure for the next 2 months. prioritise.
yup i think too much.
i am too cranky for my own good. argh i'm so tired of pretending like everything's fine. and the worst part is i dunno what exactly is troubling me either i've been having pretty bad mood swings lately. anw i went to yanjun's blog just now and she mentioned mrs sherwood (my sec 3 and 4 form teacher) and it just brought back a lot of memories. gosh how much i miss that girl. and qiuning and pipi and vinca. girls i hope u're doing fine with prelims! jiayou alright? (:
watchin u;
at 6:07 AM
we finally had a more successful class girls outing today where we (peilian manda weiqin mel twin eileen and i) went to katong to eat laksa (absolutely awesome!), to parkway parade to shop (manda bought a pair of shorts and she was so pleased about it haha) then to settler's to play board games. it was pretty fun at settler's we were joined by john and josh after a while. i can't really rmb the names of the games we played (let's see ugly doll, cash and guns... ok really don't rmb) but we were definitely making a lot of noise, shouting laughing and banging the table, and perhaps making life a little difficult for the people who work there. haha. i think they completely deserved the 10% service charge for being so patient with us. the only complaint i have about that place is that there is very little leg room between the sofas and table. my legs were cramping after sitting and not being able to move around much for so long.
i suddenly rmb smth that happened not too long ago. i was sick from tuesday to thursday during the september holidays and wasn't feeling very fantastic the following week when school reopoened. and i was kinda whining about it and weiqin was like see you always said you wanted to be sick and you really fell ill next time watch what you say. cos during term 3 i kept telling the girls i wanted to be sick so i could miss school and rest at home cos i was so tired of the same old routine of sleep eat study and all i wanted was to rest. and of course i won't 'pon' school so i really wanted an excuse to not have to wake up at 5.40 in the morning. but i never fell ill. and i still did the stupidest thing of complaining. i mean when i was sick for the 2 weeks i felt terrible (especially the 3 days) and i just wanted to recover. so instead of wanting to fall ill i should really thank God for keeping me healthy despite the cranky weather we're having now.
it's frustrating how sometimes you're caught between two thoughts and you know which is wrong but you still can't shake the thought off. basically it's what i called the self-centred thought and it's like there's this angel and devil's voice in your head, kind of like in the cartoons, and you know that it's wrong to think of such a thing but somehow there's another voice that creeps into your mind telling you it's alright to sometimes want something for yourself. argh. ok i'm just talking to myself here it's just frustrating cos no matter how many times i tell myself that it's really not a big deal that i don't get what i want, but then again, i just want it. i'm just praying about it hoping that God will help me understand.
sometimes i think i just think too much. manda can vouch for that i'm sure. melly you're 18 already grow up! others before self. As before any sort of pleasure for the next 2 months. prioritise.
yup i think too much.
watchin u;
at 6:07 AM